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~aznDreamer04:iconaznDreamer04:

 

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  • Deviant since Apr 23, 2004, 1:11 PM
  • 34 Deviations
  • 323 Deviation Comments
  • 97 Deviant Comments
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Poor DA

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 29, 2005, 2:41 AM
i've been neglecting you something awful, haven't i?

been obsessing with my tattoo. i just can't get it right. i feel like i can't justify getting a large back piece without having drawn and made it my own on my own. but i can't do it. i don't have the talent. i've got the images in my head, but that's where they stay.

ah what to do.

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 21
  • Interests: Reading * Drawing * Listening * Dreaming * Passion * Writing * Living * Beauty
  • Favourite movie: The Matrix ~ Hannibal
  • Favourite genre of music: Mainstream
  • Favourite poet or writer: Jacqueline Carey
  • MP3 player of choice: Ipod
  • Skin of choice: **The one I'm in**
  • Favourite cartoon character: Calvin & Hobbes
  • Tools of the Trade: Digi. Cam. and whatever else I can get my hands on

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Devious Comments

~chriskuhn15:iconchriskuhn15: Aug 30, 2007, 6:22:57 AM
hey baby i love you and ur work thanks for your help ill see you to night :)
~nemosapien:iconnemosapien: Dec 1, 2005, 11:51:35 AM
Thanks for adding me to your firend's list. By the way, what does the character in your avatar mean? I'm always asking stuff about other people's deviant names and avatars.

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my portfolio website: [link]
~sina7:iconsina7: Oct 11, 2005, 1:06:09 PM
thanks alot for the watch :-)

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god created a few perfect people. the rest are right handed.
~phaerielike:iconphaerielike: Sep 3, 2005, 6:05:42 PM
thanks for the :+fav: on my back tatt!!! :glomp:

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Only when you close your eyes can you really see....
~alpha05:iconalpha05: Aug 23, 2005, 12:13:35 PM
Thx sooo much for the comment! :thumbsup:
~DarqueMagus:iconDarqueMagus: Mar 20, 2005, 5:56:21 PM
YOU HAVE BEEN KISSED!!!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

*dingding* RULES:
1- You can kiss the person who kissed you!
2- You can't kiss the person more than 3 times
3- You -MUST- kiss 6 other people
4- You should kiss them in public! Paste it on their user page! c'mon..don't be scared of public displays of affection
5- Random kisses are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
6- You should most definitly get started kissing right away!

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only bitches talk shit

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"To truely know you must look to the inside....to truely love you must understand the inside." -ME :butterflytwo:
~EndoMethodrob:iconEndoMethodrob: Nov 25, 2004, 12:26:26 AM
nice gallery check out mine if u'd like

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Look at me again and i'll cut off ur head and nail it to my wall
~designcritik:icondesigncritik: Nov 6, 2004, 9:58:53 PM
hope your college is getting less boring... my life's really getting to be a hoot-a-minute... not really.
*icore:iconicore: Nov 2, 2004, 2:03:08 AM
:lol:

Well I hope you had a great holloween.. err.. couple days ago. :giggle:

My neighborhood was really really quiet. :\ Guess everyone stayed home, watched movies or played on the internet. :D
*icore:iconicore: Oct 31, 2004, 3:33:55 PM
Happy Halloween. :party:
~killowlsdead:iconkillowlsdead: Oct 26, 2004, 1:12:15 PM
thanks for the watch babe ;)

-jeremy:skull:
~bennetvdg:iconbennetvdg: Oct 14, 2004, 1:38:56 AM
Beautiful girl... :drool: =p

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Stab it through my heart!
Twist it, turn it!
Drive it deeper!
Bleed me dry!
~Avry:iconAvry: Oct 10, 2004, 3:22:26 PM
Thanks For The Fav's :) Beautiful Work You Have Here :D..

-Avry-
~aznDreamer04:iconaznDreamer04: Oct 6, 2004, 5:47:53 PM
a little more than "a little" melancholy, but i loved it. pretty friggin depressing... but it fit my mood a the time too. :)
~designcritik:icondesigncritik: Oct 5, 2004, 6:26:57 PM
Spotless Mind was a great movie.... fit exactly into where I was at the time too, but kinda melancholy if you really want to think about it.
~aznDreamer04:iconaznDreamer04: Oct 3, 2004, 7:18:14 PM
OMG I HAVE A THOUSAND AND TWO PAGE VIEWS! never thought i'd get there. i remember when i had like 12. :(
~designcritik:icondesigncritik: Oct 3, 2004, 5:04:03 PM
aw crap. I wanted to grab your thousandth pageview but I missed it by a second. :glomp: oh well.
~aznDreamer04:iconaznDreamer04: Oct 2, 2004, 10:01:57 PM
hrm i have a friend whose middle name is akira. but i've never heard of the director.
~designcritik:icondesigncritik: Oct 2, 2004, 8:47:37 PM
vehemently agreeing with Tao's Kurosawa comment.
~aznDreamer04:iconaznDreamer04: Oct 1, 2004, 10:36:02 AM
hm. that's alot to think about.
~designcritik:icondesigncritik: Sep 30, 2004, 10:44:44 PM
I'm going to go back to being slightly more socially acceptable now. sometimes I hit a saturation point and I can't take another sarcastic or lightly-put remark which just carelessly downs christianity because it's fun and easy to do.
~designcritik:icondesigncritik: Sep 30, 2004, 10:19:43 PM
shit.. you asked for it... I can't deny you an answer, and my answers are usually pretty extended and blunt.

well damn... if you're going to "advocate for the devil" then I'm going to explain the hell out of it.. wait. no. that was a bad pun in the first place, and no, I'm not going to because I'm sicker than shit about being mocked for beliefs, and I'm absof***inglutely sure there's at least someone who's looking at this who has some sort of snide remark about my beliefs.

no I'm not a friggin' homophobe, being a homophobe is so damn shallow and it's not real wise to accuse all Christians generally of being homophobes; that though is beside what really want to get to, and it could take a chapter or more to explain exactly what I mean, and it really takes guts to admit this shit, cuz it's not popular... at all. I can't overemphasize that. this topic is the kind of shit that makes people who would otherwise get along great to hate each other just because they're not speaking the same language.

what the Bible says, in Leviticus, Romans, Corinthians and other places is that it is not right for a man to lay with a man or a woman to lay with a woman, and I am assuming you understand what that translates to. I don't WANT to agree with it, cuz I'd rather just sit back and say "whatever you want to do, wonderful"... but my guts wont let me. often I say nothing, and it's often a better idea to just stay shut-up. I socialize with gay people as I would with anyone else. I really do... often they tend to stay away from me though... just because of who they've prejudged me to be... but that's another story.

what point am I coming to though? well let me say this, and it sounds awful because in your eyes I'm already a bigot or whatever, but "all sin is equal in the eyes of God". that means a lie or a cheat or any action or thought that doesn't have a pure nature is the same. if I hated a gay person it's the same as if that gay person hated me. it's the same as me hitting that gay person or that gay person hitting me... but the next step are those little passages that say homosexuality is sinful. this here is talking about "living in sin".... living in sin is the same all across the map... smoking, which is polluting the temple of God is the same as homosexual sex, is the same as drugs, is the same as porn, is the same as habits like gambling. it's all bad, but we just accept it, right? hell, I don't want to go tell ANYONE that anything they're doing is not right.

I could also go the route of physiological sense... an asshole is not clean, literally or metaphorically. that deserves a chapter on its own, but I'll go on. it also doesn't naturally lubricate when the body of the person receiving is involved. homosexual sex does not allow for the two parties involved to face one another... don't you think that would be important to a benevolent Creator when He created sex? sorry I didn't argue lesbian sex, but I don't have the time or patience to write a full explanation tonight.

let me talk about The Passion next, before I really do write a book here. yes, the whole concept of Jesus having been beaten to crap then killed... very basically, He as God willingly humbled himself as a human and just as weak as humans to give people something more tangible and "in common" to connect to. the key word here is "benevolent God". there's nothing that we can connect to better than another human with all our own weaknesses. being the Son of God, on the other hand, what better life teacher could exist? you see little snippits of his example as a teacher during the short reprieves in violence during the movie. I read mention of seeing The Passion as an emotional and moving example of what shit people do to each other. this is that, yes, but it is a totally unselfish and loving God allowing his children to beat the shit out of Him in the form of His "Son" to take the place of blood sacrifices.... you know, the thing where everyone would sacrifice their best unblemished lamb to God? that's the reason for the name Lamb of God... Jesus is the sacrifice of God given to those who would otherwise keep sacrificing their livestock as tangible and crucial proof of a loyal heart.. more to remind the people sacrificing, because God sees the condition of the heart anyway.

regarding being agnostic? I'd definitely say you are agnostic not atheistic. just by the way you talk. I can tell you believe there's something true in all this shit. anyway....

you know, there's so much more that I could say, but I know I must have bored the fuck out of you so I'm going to stop. have fun. I hope some of this will get chewed on and not all of it goes to waste.

-Alex
~aznDreamer04:iconaznDreamer04: Sep 30, 2004, 8:56:49 AM
please explain! **bwahahaha devil's advocate**
~designcritik:icondesigncritik: Sep 29, 2004, 9:50:20 PM
aw shit... I'm gonna stick my ass right out of this conversation literally right now, after this note... I've been through my unfair share of people even violently arguing about all this stuff, and I don't intend on fussing over it ever again at this rate. I won't overexplain how I feel about the passion, cuz it's obvious that very few people give a shit about anything more than its human connection, which is why it's so human... to get to where it wants to go.... but here I go starting to explain. forget it. sorry I said anything.